Writing is hard. Well writing isn’t that hard, just starting to write is hard. So far, it hasn’t become and easier to get going. Once I get going it usually tends to progress smoothly and mostly feel right, but getting there is like pulling teeth. It feels like some strange holy process that you have to be in the perfect mindset and setting to begin. This is completely false. Just write damn you! Seriously, get going; write tired, write hungry, write depressed, write distracted if possible. You need to write and you won’t feel right unless you do it. Not sure if anyone is getting this but this is what I have to tell myself everyday. I say this after having a good week and a half of struggling to write. I have already written more today than I did the past week, which is fine, we all have periods of doubt and struggle. Move on and do what you need to do. Work to get better but always remember that with every word, stroke of your pen, or even a brush you are artistically progressing.
It helps knowing that even professional, well-accomplished writers still have a hard time keeping themselves accountable. Learning to work through self-doubt is one of the hardest things about the creative mind. Just know this, you will be less happy doing nothing, than you will be doing just a little that takes every bit of effort. Just spending fifteen minutes writing is progress, but chances are that once you get started you won’t want to stop. But if you all you can do is write a wretched paragraph, don’t get discouraged, count it as a success. Every awful word you write or type is worth the time, it doesn’t have to seem like it at the time but trust me, you will feel better writing something you hate than writing nothing at all. So ignore that self-doubt BS and just write what you can.
I feel like this is incredibly repetitive but this is one of those things I need beaten into me more than anything. As someone who has had a hard time finding that one thing they know they are supposed to do, I need this to keep me going. And I am sure that many others need this kind of perspective, whether it’s writing, music, art, or just getting through school or a project. We need it beating into us to just take things one wobbly step at a time and that’s what I am doing. That’s what this blog is about. It’s about me, and anyone feeling the struggle of their calling to just keep at it. So lets do that and not forget that its not easy, it’s the hardest thing to do. Giving up is easy. So just go out there and keep failing until you can finally succeed.
Well this post is entirely too serious. Here are some things making me feel good or inspired lately. Or just things I like. It’s my blog I can do what I want.
Kid Cudi – Yea I know, super vulgar and whatever. Also sooo 2009. I don’t care been inspiring me lately. Dude makes great stuff all the while dealing with depression. Pursuit of Happiness/ Simple As/ Cudi Zone/ Up Up & Away are the best tracks not in that order.
TESD – Podcast that is also super vulgar. I still don’t care, its just nice to relate to some hilarious middle aged guys. The main guys are from Comic Book Men and Impractical Jokers.
Haruki Murakami – Been really into this guys writing lately and never really feel disappointed by a book. Also just found out he started writing around my same age. If you like or don’t mind bizarre surrealist situations, science fiction, sexuality, cats, whisky, noir, or just fantastic writing then I can’t recommend Murakami enough. Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World is my personal favorite but really any of his other popular novels are great.
I’ll probably post about things inspiring or keeping going on each posts, if this is a bad/good idea feel free to let me know. Or don’t, more likely you don’t care or read this on accident.